I’ve never been able to do something for more than one year before becoming bored.
This includes, but is not limited to: freelancing for web development & graphic design, making & selling jewelry, relationships, being a photog for hire, working out (seriously, how do you get bored with losing weight?!), having hair that extends beyond my earlobe, living in one place… the list goes on and on.
And then, I started reading tarot professionally. September 24 marks the first anniversary of my first paid reading and a year later, I’m not bored with reading tarot. Restless at times, yes– thus 3 name changes before settling here— but I feel as though I have finally gotten it right. In celebration of my baby’s (almost) first birthday, I want to share some things that I’ve learned.
Lesson One: Boundaries. Have them.
At one point, the term “boundary” was a foreign concept to me. Someone needed me, they knew to call me and that I drop everything to be there for them, neglecting myself in the process. What the fuck was I thinking? I learned how to better establish boundaries as I got older, but once I became a business owner in an industry where clients and potential clients needed me, I noticed those lines began to fade. There came a point when many people were “picking my brain”. Too many people were expecting me to crank out free content at a rate more comfortable for them. Too many people would expect me to read for them… for free. Being the person I am, too many people were about to be on the receiving end of a cuss out, but I realized that I had set the standard for this behavior and as such, I had to be the one to unset it.
I put my foot down and learned a better way to communicate and enforce my boundaries. I realized that without boundaries, I was running myself ragged and although I knew that I needed to honor my commitment as a light worker, I had to realize that I truly don’t owe anyone anything. My presence is literally a present, meant in the least pompous way possible. I learned that I am still able to be there for people while standing my ground and making it known that I am not a reader on demand and that I do still have a life. It seems to be working out for us all.
Lesson Two: Reading fatigue is real.
Before I made the decision to go pro, I was reading maybe one person every other week. As such, I didn’t know what it meant to become burned out from doing one heavy reading or 7 readings in one day… but got damn, that shit is real.
That’s really all that I have here. If you’re aspiring to go pro, please know that this shit is real. Determine what your limits are and aim to stay just a bit below them. Moving on.
Lesson Three: The high is even realer.
There is no better feeling than knowing that you’re walking in your purpose. After each session, even when tired and worn down, I feel so full. Knowing that I’ve helped someone arrive at solutions to the tough shit going on in their lives is rewarding as hell; I’ve never held a job where I could feel that 100% of the time. I’ve had some moments during which I’ve considered giving up, but I’ve always realized that I can’t. I wish that I could’ve found a tarot reader like myself years ago… one who is willing to sit and talk and give the cold, hard facts while backing it up with a smile and a giggle. That’s everything to me… so as long as I have breath and a vision, I’m going to continue to read tarot and to put out projects like The Abundance Gospel and mentor new tarot readers who like their counsel straight without chase.
Lesson Four: It’s just as much for me as it is for my clients.
I’ve now been writing long enough to be brought to tears. To each and every one of you… thank you. I always say that tarot is a tool of counsel and of transformation, but I’ll be damned if my clients haven’t worked to counsel and transform me as well. I’ve grown so much, I understand so much more and I’m so grateful to be put in this place of both teaching & learning. So to my clients–past, present, and future– I love you and it’s my absolute pleasure to be able to be there for you, to be the keeper of your secrets, to be your friend, your pal, your confidant, and your cheerleader. I’m honored.
I’ve learned a lot in this last year and these things stuck out most.
Here’s to one year of Dee Fells Tarot. May there be many, many more.